Alex and I are really not getting along. I'm not sure if it's getting worse or I've just hit my bullshit limit and everything now irritates me. Today he was dismissive of my ideas in lab meeting...ideas I only mentioned because *he* brought them up in a private discussion the week before, and I like to put all ideas on the table during lab meeting. I also like to show him that I'm listening to his ideas and thinking about them. When he pulls this shit it puts me in the position of having to decide if I want to engage in a public argument with him which I can't win even if I'm right unless a senior faculty sticks up for me in which case I still can't win because it makes him look bad and I'll probably have to deal with more bullshit privately afterwards.
He's never directly confrontational or voices his frustrations in any direct way which makes any hope of sorting this out impossible. I just won't take that role any more where I help people older than me sort out their shit and call them out when they're being a dick. not my pay scale, and it never, ever ends well.
I need to focus on disengaging emotionally from this relationship. And probably relationships like this in the future because I keep finding myself in this position with mentors/role models and in general people I want to trust to help me become a better person/better at what I do.
I also need to be asleep and getting over my cold not thinking about this shit. What I get for taking a 2h nap this afternoon.